The Pisces & The Scorpio (12)
Chapter 12: THE JERK
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I was really fulfilled knowing that Isabel was now my girlfriend. It only took 11 days from our first date for her to change her mind about having a relationship. After that weekend she couldn’t deny our feelings.
Before she left that night, Isabel asked me if I was going to go see Abbi. I told her no, but I said I did have to go to my Tacoma property. She left my house about 5:30pm and I debated what I should do. I now had the perfect girlfriend that I wanted, but for some reason I still decided to keep my plans with Abbi. And again, it was because I was feeling previous resentment. Which I don’t know why I kept it inside. I really was truly happy and more excited than I had ever been with a relationship. But I was feeling like I still lacked control. And I kept putting off Abbi so I figured I should at least meet her. I guess my mind thought that if Isabel changed her mind then I would have a back up. I didn’t trust anyone, even though I wanted to trust my new girlfriend.
I started making the long voyage down south. Abbi actually drove towards me a little so I wouldn’t have to drive so far. She wanted to meet up at a bar. She sent me the address and I was on my way. I got there first and waited in the lobby area. She finally arrived and we officially met. She was just as cute as the million pictures she had sent me. But not anywhere as beautiful as Isabel.
We walked into the bar only to have the lady say they weren’t serving food anymore and we wanted to eat. It was like 7pm on a Sunday. We got into my vehicle and we drove around looking for somewhere to eat. We found an Applebee’s restaurant and went in and sat down. Abbi isn’t really a talker. And the same attitude came through where she didn’t understand my personality or humor. I couldn’t make her laugh or get her to relax. She was just kind of rude and distant. I figured she must not have liked me in person. We ordered our food and I continued trying to talk to her. It was difficult. Then I did what I used to do, I talked about other girls. That just made her mad, so I started talking to the waitress. I said some silly comments and made her laugh. We had an age related ongoing joke. Abbi didn’t find it funny at all. When we were done eating we left and got into my vehicle. She was upset. We sat there and I asked her what was wrong. She looked like she was going to cry and she told me that I hurt her feelings and made her feel stupid by flirting with the waitress. I explained to her that I like to talk and goof around and I didn’t mean anything by it. She told me to take her to her car. We drove in silence back to the bar we met at. She hopped out and slammed the door without saying bye.
I texted her after she drove off and asked her to come back. I apologized for whatever I did. She said I was an asshole and she was going home. I actually didn’t care. All I could think about was my Isabel. But now I was feeling guilty for going out with another girl on the day Isabel and I became a couple. This made me feel like I cheated. While I was driving home, Isabel texted me:
12/15/19. 8:41pm
ISABEL: Can you pls save my ice cream in the freezer I would hate for it to go to waste!
12/15/19. 8:41pm
ME: Yes. I knew you would forget.
12/15/19. 9:06pm
ISABEL: Thank youuuuu. Lol how did you know
12/15/19. 9:07pm
ME: Because it was in the freezer and then all of that stuff happened at the end.
12/15/19. 9:06pm
ISABEL: Yeah…
12/15/19. 9:39pm
ME: I’m just getting home.
12/15/19. 10:40pm
ISABEL: From seeing Abbi?
12/15/19. 10:41pm
ME: No. I got back from Tacoma.
She didn’t answer after that. She knew in her heart that I might have actually gone to see Abbi. She was upset. I didn’t really lie because I did go to Tacoma. But I know the whole thing was pathetic. Why would I jeopardize my new relationship? And all I did was make myself feel gross. I decided that night that I couldn’t be doing that anymore. Isabel had my heart and I needed to stop doing what I always did. Which was doing whatever I wanted to without worrying about other people’s feelings. I really wanted this. I texted her again because I knew she was a hurt. But she was asleep or ignoring me:
12/15/19. 11:42pm
ME: Well good night my beautiful girlfriend. I had a wonderful weekend with you. Sorry about upsetting you today. You are very special to me and I will never hurt you.
But I did. I hurt her already on our first day. I really was a jerk and I needed to fix myself. I left her alone the next day and waited for her to text. But instead of being understanding, I was mad because she didn’t text right away. I saw it that we were newly together so she should be excited and text me right away in the morning when she woke up. I disregarded the parts where I upset her by leaving Abbi on the phone for her to hear when she came back in my house the night before. And going to meet up behind her back, which she had an idea that I did. But of course I just stewed on it all day. I talked to Abbi and apologized again. She forgave me and said that she really liked me and was hurt that I was flirting with the waitress. She asked if she could come spend the weekend with me. What was I doing? Was I cheating? No. I was just trying to be nice. I really needed to send Abbi on her way and tell her that I had a girlfriend. But instead I just said things to make her mad at me again. I figured that was the best way to get rid of her.
Isabel waited until almost 3:00pm to message me, so I didn’t answer her right away and then I let her have it a little:
12/16/19. 2:46pm
ISABEL: Hey :) how are you?
12/16/19. 3:21pm
ME: Good. I forgot that I had a gf for a while there. I don’t want to sound like a dick. And I know how you are with your phone. But did you really not think of me last night or this morning? Or are you having second thoughts on this whole relationship thing?
12/16/19. 3:52pm
ISABEL: I did babe. Just cause I didn’t text you doesn’t mean I’m not thinking of you!
12/16/19. 3:54pm
ME: Interesting. I just see it differently I guess. Anyways. How was your day?
12/16/19. 3:54pm
ISABEL: Good just was at work all day! How was yours?
12/16/19. 3:55pm
ME: It was fine. I did business stuff and now I’m picking up my sons. Time to finally get a Christmas tree. And all of that.
12/16/19. 3:57pm
ISABEL: Yay!
It was so hard to stay angry with her. I was falling in love and so was she. The comment I made about knowing how she is with her phone was about how she used it. She told me that her ringer was always off. The only way she knew if she had texts is when she checked it. She did this because she didn’t want her phone to run her life. But the issue was that it just seemed rude. It can also be an indication of hiding things. She told me that everyone gets mad at her because of her phone etiquette. I wondered why she would choose having people being mad at her over just answering her texts. If there were people texting her that she didn’t want to talk to then she could just ignore them. And if she was ignoring everyone so much then why would they even want to contact her? None of it really added up. There had to be something else. She constantly was doing it to me and it was building up inside of me. I asked if she could silence everyone else but have a special ring for me or something. She couldn’t figure that out. I always looked forward to talking to her 24/7. I had a special ring for her so every time it went off my heart would flutter and I knew it was her. I guess everyone is different. But I needed to get over her quirks and start loving everything about her. Because I did. It was just the phone thing made me feel like she didn’t care. We kept texting:
12/16/19. 4:11pm
ME: I miss you.
12/16/19. 4:40pm
ISABEL: I miss you too! Are you free tomorrow night?
12/16/19. 4:46pm
ME: For you yes.
12/16/19. 4:47pm
ISABEL: 😊 Wanna get together? I’m free after 6
12/16/19. 4:51pm
ME: Yes. Do you want me to pick you up?
12/16/19. 5:04pm
ISABEL: Yeah :)
12/16/19. 5:08pm
ME: Okie. What are you doing on Wednesday though?
12/16/19. 5:14pm
ISABEL: Just work till 3. Why what’s up?
12/16/19. 5:20pm
ME: I might be showing rooms there.
12/16/19. 5:41pm
ISABEL: Oh are you? When?
12/16/19. 5:50pm
ME: Probably around that time. Before 3pm.
12/16/19. 5:52pm
ISABEL: Oh okay!
12/16/19. 6:14pm
ME: So maybe we will see each other both days. And then over the weekend.
12/16/19. 6:19pm
ISABEL: Yes!! 💓
12/16/19. 6:20pm
ME: I was thinking maybe you could come over and meet my sons and then we all could go to a movie or whatever. Then you can stay over. I told them all about you today.
12/16/19. 6:25pm
ISABEL: Oh you did? Okay! Yeah I’d like to meet them :) When were you thinking we would go? But are you sure it’s not too soon? I was reading about it online and it said to wait at least two months of dating… Please don’t be mad I just wanted to talk about it more
12/16/19. 6:33pm
ME: Whenever you’re free. Friday or Saturday. Maybe stay over Saturday if you don’t work Sunday. I’m not having you meet them so you can be stepmom. It’s just so you can stay over whenever. They are teenagers. Not little kids. So we don’t need to worry about what someone says online. It’s not the same situation.
12/16/19. 6:41pm
ISABEL: Okay. That’s fine !
12/16/19. 6:49pm
ME: You don’t need to feel uncomfortable. If we don’t have you meet them then you would only come over when they are gone. That would suck and there is no reason for that.
12/16/19. 6:49pm
ISABEL: I’ve just never done this before so I’m not sure how to act, haha
12/16/19. 6:58pm
ME: You’ll be totally fine. They are my best friends and I just want everyone to be comfortable. I just want my beautiful babe to be able to stay with me.
12/16/19. 7:14pm
ISABEL: Okay…I think I’m just a little nervous but I’ll get past it
12/16/19. 7:15pm
ME: I will hold your hand. Ha.
12/16/19. 7:18pm
ISABEL: Okay. I’m really shy but I’ll do my best I promise
12/16/19. 7:19pm
ME: Baby. You will be fine. It will be quick and easy.
12/16/19. 7:26pm
ISABEL: Promise?
12/16/19. 7:31pm
ME: I totally promise.
12/16/19. 7:32pm
ISABEL: Okay 💓
12/16/19. 7:35pm
ME: Honestly my sons are awesome. I just don’t want to sneak you around or not have you over. Anyways. I want to kiss you.
12/16/19. 7:45pm
ISABEL: So sneaking me around is an option then? Looool jkjk. I wanna kiss you 💓
The thing with my sons was that I hardly ever brought girls around them. A couple of times when they were young we would go do something and I would invite a random girl with us. But that was rare. When that did happen then I would just say they were a friend. But now my sons were 14 and 16. And I didn’t have a real girlfriend until Alexa. I had her meet them and then we broke up right away. She was staying at my house for that week and I didn’t want things being awkward. So I quickly had them meet her. It wasn’t a big deal. I previously told them I was going to start dating now that they were older. They were happy for me. I had spent all my time raising them and they really didn’t need me for that anymore. Then there was Isabel. She didn’t really understand what I was trying to do. I let my sons know that I had a new girlfriend, which felt weird because I just had Alexa a month before. I told them that I would introduce them to her soon. I needed for her to meet them so she could spend the night whenever. My sons had begun staying with me most of the time. This meant they hardly would go to their mom’s house. So I didn’t want anyone feeling odd when she stayed over. Isabel thought of it like it in the movies. Some horror story of meeting the kids. She was thinking into it too much. It would be ridiculous to try to get her in and out of my house and room without my sons seeing her. That would be annoying and awkward. I tried to see it from her side, but I know my boys and the situation. They wouldn’t care. I had to make it all comfortable right away. And considering after all of that she said, “I wanna to kiss you,” I could see it wouldn’t be that much of an issue.
She sent me a picture of the little Christmas tree that I had bought her. She had decorated it:
12/16/19. 8:05pm
ME: Cute. Your lips are my favorite. Your kisses are my favorite.
12/16/19. 8:35pm
ISABEL: Aww 💓 they are?
12/16/19. 8:42pm
ME: Yes babe, you are my favorite. You know what would be fun or hot or exciting?
12/16/19. 9:06pm
ISABEL: Hmm???
12/16/19. 9:12pm
ME: If we just kissed, made out, and talked. Like with some of our clothes on. I know it would drive me nuts. But I have such an attraction to you. It would be fun to just tease ourselves and kiss without sex. Or sex at the end after we are hot for each other. I don’t know. That might sound dumb or like we’re teenagers. But I don’t know. Rolling around just connecting. Mmm I just wish I could touch you right now.
12/16/19. 9:12pm
ISABEL: That sounds fun I’m into it ;)
12/16/19. 9:19pm
ME: Okie.
We never did it. I regret it to this day. I just wanted to spend time talking and loving each other without rushing. We always seemed to be in a hurry. She always had work the next day. She always needed to go home to get sleep. Even when she stayed over, the time seemed to fly by and she would have to go. I just wanted us to kiss and talk for hours and hours without sex. I still want this. Maybe someday we can do it. Who knows. We kept texting:
12/16/19. 9:21pm
ME: So what are you doing?
12/16/19. 9:23pm
ISABEL: I’m about to make food and then go to sleep. Not exciting lol
12/16/19. 9:39pm
ME: I want to make you food. When you have a moment tell me your favorite meals. Like big meals with a few things.
12/16/19. 9:39pm
ISABEL: 😍😍😍
12/16/19. 9:43pm
ME: And it can be anything. Because even if it normally has dairy or meet then I will find a recipe to make it with non-dairy and meatless ingredients.
12/16/19. 10:28pm
ISABEL: 😊 I like lasagna, vegetable stir fry with tofu, Shepherd’s pie, pierogis, tacos, pizza, potatoes, chicken parm, any kind of noodles, Indian food, literally any food haha except for eggplant. Oh and I *hate* sweet potato fries and sushi. I really like chickpea bowls with quinoa and anything Mediterranean or like wings and pizza
12/16/19. 10:29pm
ME: Well I will figure something out to make you. What do you want to do tomorrow?
12/16/19. 10:29pm
ISABEL: Okay, sounds good 😃 Do you want to get food?
12/16/19. 10:30pm
ME: We can do whatever. All I care about is being with you.
12/16/19. 10:30pm
ISABEL: 😊 Let’s get food
12/16/19. 10:31pm
ME: There should be good places around you.
12/16/19. 10:33pm
ISABEL: Ya there’s Indian food, pho idk what else!! I think Thai. I’ll lyk. I’m gonna go to bed 😴
12/16/19. 10:35pm
ME: Anything is fine. There really isn’t much for me to eat at a Thai place though. Ok babes. Sleeeeep my angel. I’m excited to see you tomorrow. Have good dreams of us. Good night cutie.
12/16/19. 10:36pm
ISABEL: Okay :) I will, sleep well tonite I’ll see you and tty tomorrow 🌃💓
When she would actually say good night it made me feel good. I knew she was in bed and going to sleep and I could relax. It wasn’t always like that though.
