The Pisces & The Scorpio (13)

Chapter 13: YOU’RE MY HEART

Things were starting to get really good with our relationship. The next morning Isabel was right there texting me:

12/17/19. 8:43am

ISABEL: Good morning hun💓

12/17/19. 8:45am

ME: Good morning angel.

12/17/19. 8:59am

ISABEL: How’d you sleep?

12/17/19. 8:59am

ME: Ok I guess. Only a few hours. What about you?

12/17/19. 9:08am

ISABEL: Wow! I would die. Every thing ok? I slept super deep

12/17/19. 9:09am

ME: I just don’t sleep too well in general. I slept really well when you were in my bed.

12/17/19. 9:29am

ISABEL: You should get a sleep study. I had a good dream turned scary :(

12/17/19. 9:31am

ME: No scary dreams. Just good dreams for you. I don’t dream much anymore.

12/17/19. 10:12am

ISABEL: It started out as a good dream that I was at a concert, sitting down on the ground with everyone else. Then the guy behind me put his arms around my neck and wouldn’t let go. I was able to get away but he chased me. I was eventually safe and the band taught me self defense at the end so I guess it ended well lol

12/17/19. 10:14am

ME: Ha weird. I wish I could have saved you in it.

12/17/19. 1:03pm

ISABEL: Me too

12/17/19. 1:21pm

ME: Maybe next dream. Maybe you’ll have a sexy dream. About us of course.

12/17/19. 1:21pm

ISABEL: Duh 😘😘

12/17/19. 1:23pm

ME: Ha. Well who knows what other boys you think about.

12/17/19. 2:56pm

ISABEL: 😘 Ughhhh ironically someone at work surprised me with SWEET POTATO FRIES I seriously can’t believe this! I felt so bad so I ate a few. 😥 They are my least favorite food ever

12/17/19. 2:58pm

ME: Ha. Poor babes.

12/17/19. 4:30pm

ISABEL: Do you still want to get together tonite ??

12/17/19. 4:31pm

ME: Why would you ask that?

12/17/19. 4:32pm

ISABEL: Just checking? I was opening the conversation to talk about times. I always do this with friends

12/17/19. 4:33pm

ME: Ok babe. You’re going to be upset. So we have to see each other tonight.

12/17/19. 4:33pm

ISABEL: Why?

12/17/19. 4:34pm

ME: Because we’re going to break up. Duh.

12/17/19. 4:34pm

ISABEL: I’m confused

12/17/19. 4:34pm

ME: I’m kidding.

12/17/19. 4:34pm

ISABEL: Lol it’s hard to tell through text. I thought so

12/17/19. 4:34pm

ME: Sorry that was mean.

12/17/19. 4:34pm

ISABEL: No it’s okay

12/17/19. 4:34pm

ME: Because paperwork arrived at the house for tenants.

12/17/19. 4:35pm

ISABEL: …. You’re joking. Right. Another joke

12/17/19. 4:35pm

ME: No.

12/17/19. 4:35pm

ISABEL: Fuck

12/17/19. 4:35pm

ME: I know babe.

12/17/19. 4:35pm

ISABEL: I need to drive home…I’m sitting in the work parking lot let’s talk about this later if that’s okay

12/17/19. 4:36pm

ME: Jimmy is going to slide your copy under your door. So just bring copies with you when I pick you up.

12/17/19. 4:45pm

ISABEL: I see it here

12/17/19. 4:46pm

ME: Don’t freak yourself out. Just bring it with you. I’m in Bothell and I will be there in a while when I’m done.

12/17/19. 4:48pm

ISABEL: Okay. Do you have an ETA so I know when to be ready?

12/17/19. 4:49pm

ME: Be ready nowwwwww. Ha. I will be there about 5:45–6pm.

12/17/19. 4:55pm

ISABEL: Okay! Jimmy gave me papers from you? He slid them under my door, but also gave me a stack face to face and he asked if I’m seeing you tonight, I said yes

12/17/19. 5:01pm

ME: Ok good.

12/17/19. 5:05pm

ISABEL: I think he wants to talk to u

12/17/19. 5:13pm

ME: I’ll talk to everyone tomorrow when I’m there. I need to read the paperwork first. This woman I’m waiting for is going to make me late for my date with my mate.

12/17/19. 5:18pm

ISABEL: I should probably meet you like at the restaurant then cuz they’re here. Or something

12/17/19. 5:18pm

ME: Who’s there?

12/17/19. 5:19pm

ISABEL: Jimmy and Sabra

12/17/19. 5:19pm

ME: So.

12/17/19. 5:20pm

ISABEL: It might make you look bad if you show up here but don’t talk to them but maybe I’m overthinking

12/17/19. 5:21pm

ME: I’m pulling up and you are hopping in. I’ve already been talking to him. I need to read everything. I have nothing else to say yet babes.

12/17/19. 5:21pm

ISABEL: Okay. I’m gonna finish getting ready

12/17/19. 5:22pm

ME: Ok hun.

The paperwork had to do with my company and the owner of the house. We were having an issue that would become a huge problem in the near future, as I will address in another chapter.

12/17/19. 5:59pm

ISABEL: How close are you? 💓

12/17/19. 6:05pm

ME: Sorry. 6:30pm. I had to wait for that old woman.

12/17/19. 6:06pm

ISABEL: Omg. Ok lol no worries :)

12/17/19. 6:26pm

ME: Sorry my angel butt. I’m almost there. Right at 6:30.

12/17/19. 6:27pm

ISABEL: Kayyy

12/17/19. 6:29pm

ME: I’m pulling in.

I picked her up at her house and she looked so cute. She seemed excited that she had made a reservation for us at the Saffron Grill Indian restaurant. I liked that she did that for us. We drove to restaurant and were immediately seated. I loved taking out my beautiful girl. Just being with her and having our relationship brought so much into my life. It was very special to me. I know she loved it too. Even as quiet and shy as she is, there is a side of her that likes being in public and enjoying the finer things in life.

She ordered one of the only vegan dishes on the menu and I ordered butter chicken and naan. We talked and enjoyed our time together. I talk a lot, but I loved listening to her and I was always interested in anything she would ever tell me. I wanted to learn everything from her. But I could tell there was a tremendous amount of pain inside of her regarding her past. A difficult or destructive history. I wanted to know it all, but not now. I didn’t want to pull that out of her yet. I was afraid that if I turned into her therapist then she would look at me differently. I never wanted her to look at me differently. I loved the way she viewed me. I wanted to be her man, her lover, her best friend, her confidant, her comfort, her stability, and her heart. I never wanted Isabel to think I looked down on her or was better than her. Because I’m not. She is a better person. No matter what she had done in her past or what she will do in the future, she is an amazing soul. Her past will never define her in my eyes. She is a good person and I was lucky that she even let me in.

We finished dinner and we were both thinking that we needed each other for dessert. We couldn’t go to her place because of the tenants and we were in Seattle away from my house. But that wouldn’t stop us. We found a dark Lowe’s parking lot and parked away from everyone. I went to the backseat and she followed and climbed aboard. All I could think was that I love this girl. Watching her sitting there on me. There are moments in life when you can feel so much passion and so much love. I didn’t have too many real moments like that before Isabel. But with her it was all enhanced. We could act like teenagers having sex on my backseat, be at a restaurant, watching tv, or be walking in the mall. Whatever it was, I loved every minute of our attachment. It was genuine, refreshing, intense, and authentic.

We didn’t worry about the rain outside or if people could see us steaming up the windows. We took our time and let the moment happen. I can think back now and remember her precious face, lips, and eyes, as we made love that night. It hurts now even thinking of these moments. And I’m cursed with a vivid visual memory. I can see her anytime I want. But it crushes me even still. Oh my baby.

When we were almost done, Isabel called out, “Cum in me! I need your cum!” And with that I gave in to her demand. We sat there for a moment, both of us sweaty and breathing heavy. I kissed her and she got off me and went into the far back of the vehicle to put her clothes back on. I stayed on the backseat and just watched her. She was kneeling down and looked so adorable. I turned away and let her continue getting dressed.

And then something happened as I slowly turned back around. She had reached up and quietly finished writing “I ♡ U” on the steamed up back window. Then shyly looked at me and looked back down at her clothes. What the heck? My body exploded that night. I had never had that feeling of utter love before. It was new, even at my age. I really loved this woman. I wanted to ask her to marry me right there. I wanted everything. I was in heaven. For once in my life I had the girl I wanted. She was my heart. So what did I say to her? I said, “I feel the same.” I didn’t say anything else and almost acted like I was embarrassed for her for writing it. Why? It was 3 days into our relationship and we were both in love and feeling all kinds of feelings. But I said nothing more. I pretty much acted like I didn’t see it and turned away. Why? She glanced at me from the sides of hers eyes. She was waiting for me to respond with something else. But I hesitated and I have no idea why I did.

She finished putting on her clothes and we returned to the front seats. We left the parking lot and I took her home. I still didn’t bring up what she wrote on my window. Why not? Why wouldn’t I say anything? To this day I have no idea why I didn’t capitalize on that moment. I made a huge mistake that night. She was the perfect girlfriend and I blew that moment. It was all gone in an instant and I will always regret my lack of action.

That writing stayed on my window until my vehicle was stolen about 7 months later. I could always see it at certain times when I looked back there. It was one of the only things I had left.

I took her home and we kissed goodbye. Then I went to get my sons to take them to dinner and shopping. After I was done I texted her:

12/17/19. 11:29pm

ME: Babes. You looked so beautiful tonight. I’m a lucky boy. You probably went to sleep. I will talk to you in the morning. I miss you already. Good night princess.

12/17/19. 11:30pm

ISABEL: Good night 💕💕💕